I feel a little wronged, and I really feel bad when I see them.
However, the queen mother’s actions made me feel that something was wrong with the dinner tonight, and I tried to expose the queen mother’s plot, but I didn’t expect it to be so embarrassing and was blamed by Bai Xihuang.
"That’s not true. It was the Queen Mother who asked me to accompany her today." I gritted my teeth and elaborated.
"Then what took you so long to come to the Queen Mother? Yan Er came early. Forget it. I know that you are wronged in your heart and you are still unwilling to look at me. But it is very important to come here tonight because it is Daqinggui’s daughter. Will you stop fooling around?" Bai Xihuang’s tone became serious.
I looked up at Bai Xihuang in amazement, and he actually made me angry to make trouble. Am I that kind of person? Now that I have decided to leave me, I won’t get entangled.
My heart can’t stop throbbing, my hands are clenched tightly, and it hurts. He doesn’t believe me and is sad that he should look at me like this.
I should leave the main hall and neither see those women who make me sad nor endure Bai Xihuang’s unbelief.
But I can’t rest assured that Bai Xihuang doesn’t know the queen mother’s plot, and I just guess that there is no clue before I tell him the reason
"I’ll sit here quietly and don’t interfere with your choosing a concubine. You can choose anyone you like. I won’t embarrass you. Don’t worry."
I turned my head in every way, shook my hands, picked up the case, drank a glass of hot wine hard, slid down my throat and burned my heart, but there was a cold in my blood.
Is it pain or heartache?
Bai Xihuang sighed and grabbed my glass.
"Yan Er, I don’t blame you. Don’t worry."
You don’t blame me, but you doubt me. I’m sad that you doubt me.
It turns out that our trust is so weak that it is no wonder that the queen mother designed me like this because she clung to our weaknesses.
I smiled bitterly. "I’m not so stingy. Don’t worry, I just feel bored. Come and have a look."
Bai Xihuang looked at me in silence for a long time, and finally turned around without saying anything.
I sat there quietly and watched the song and dance at the party without saying a word.
In fact, I am a neglected corner role. The whole hall is full of excitement. The ladies are teasing each other and competing to attract Bai Xihuang’s attention. No one cares about me.
I am a queen, but even darling daughter looks at me with disdain and pity.
Absence suddenly heard a crisp girl like Oriole coming out of the valley to draw my attention back.
I looked for a face. There was a woman with sharp eyes in darling daughter who was looking at me with a smile.
"The queen didn’t say a word during the whole banquet. Was it that she looked down on us women? I can remember that the empress at the flower viewing banquet said that none of us women were qualified to be imperial concubines and didn’t have to choose the empress. The tone was really serious, which frightened us girls who were waiting to be elected and made the empress unhappy. Isn’t that a big sin?"
Her one-liners made many daughters laugh.
"Ha-ha, Sister Su Yue, what should you do to annoy the queen with such a joke?" There is a girl charming echo.
I was blocked by her words, and this woman was too arrogant to face me in public. I wanted to teach her a lesson, but I promised Bai Xihuang not to make a scene and I could swallow it.
"See the Empress unhappy, Sister Su Yue. You can commit a big crime. Hehe."
The female face named Su Yue didn’t hesitate to look around the field calmly and glance at me provocatively. "The queen thinks that we women are not qualified to be concubines, so the queen must be talented, but we are not bad. Sisters, if we are not as talented as the queen, how can we be qualified to enter the palace? Why don’t we have a game with the queen to prove whether we are qualified?"
Su Yue’s proposal received a unanimous response.
I was angry that Su Yue had gone too far. I was silent. She even pushed her luck and said that the game was just to make me make a fool of myself again and again.
Bai Xihuang’s eyebrows twisted into a ball. She just wanted to refuse for me. The queen mother has already said, "This competition is interesting. I am in favor of mourning for my family. You will all become sisters with the queen in the future. You can’t let the queen look down on your sisters. The most important thing is to be harmonious and harmonious. Let’s enhance understanding and promote the feelings between the queen and everyone through the competition. The harem will be lively."
The queen mother made a speech, and Bai Xihuang’s refusal seemed narrow-minded. He turned to look at me ugly, and I looked back at him blankly.
I don’t know what it’s like in my heart. Gu Baixihuang knew that there was a trap ahead, so I jumped.
I said, "What do you want me to do, try to beat them or let them beat me?"
"It’s just a game. Don’t be too serious. Just deal with it casually." Bai Xihuang shook my hand and comforted me in a low voice
My heart sank, and I dealt with it casually. Of course, the result would be a face-to-face defeat, so they could take the opportunity to laugh at me, laugh at me for talking big, laugh at me for being stupid, and laugh at me for being bossy.
I clenched my hands and struggled violently in my heart.
But I’m leaving, and it’ll be hard again, Bai Xihuang
I won’t see them laughed at by them later, so it’s okay to think of me as Bai Xihuang doing the last thing.
"Good" I spit out the word gently, but my heart ached and I gradually became numb.
The competition is piano, chess, painting, etc.
Su Yue selected four women who are good at this field to compete with me.
In the past four games, I have lost unexpectedly. Every time I lose one game, darling daughter’s smug laughter rings around. As more and more games are lost, the laughter is getting bigger and bigger.
I laughed silently and mechanically to cope with the game.
I feel like I’ve become a stage clown. Everyone’s malicious eyes are stabbing me, and I can silently bear the loneliness and desolation.
My daughters laughed maliciously and walked back to Bai Xihuang with vain steps. I fell into my chair all over.
Bai Xihuang is worried about putting her arms around my waist and eyes. "I’m sorry Yan Er wronged you."
I cringed my shoulders to hide from his arm, and his hand immediately froze.
"Bai Xihuang, do you know that the word sorry is the most hurtful word? I hope you will never say sorry to me."